How I Got My Drive Back

Change is hard. I never really comprehended how difficult change could be until I experienced some major changes in my life in a very short period of time… All within 8 months, I had a prophylactic double breast mastectomy, quit a job that I loved, started a new career, bought a house, moved in with my fiancé, and got married.  No wonder I didn’t feel myself. Who was this woman? Even after the stitches came out from my two surgeries and the physical pain had subsided, I was left with a spirit that just couldn’t find its way back to the usual fired up, passionate, and driven self it had once been. Where was that energy and motivation I had once possessed? Why did my life feel totally disorganized and lacking focus and long term goals?  My therapist told me this was a season of my life that I needed to wait out. Yes, it was uncomfortable and unsettling, but it wouldn’t last forever. I didn’t know how to take that. How long would this season last? What if it didn’t end? How could I get my groove back? My husband was supportive and he was confident I’d get back on track, but I knew it was up to me to find my way out of this “season”.

 

It wasn’t until 8 weeks ago when, after a series of events, it was clear to me I needed to make a change. I was enjoying real estate and had received a wealth of instrumental, hands on experience by working with my partner to close 20 properties in less than a year. Most agents are lucky if they close 2 or 3 deals in their first year, so I will be forever grateful for gaining so much knowledge in my first year in the business. But, I felt this urge to truly be my own boss, manage my own business, create my own brand, and do something that felt like I was somehow giving back. Then one evening, while standing in my closet looking at the ridiculous amount of heels I own, it hit me! What if I could do something with real estate and locally owned women’s stores that would promote both real estate and supported our local businesses?  How about a catchy slogan that pops, is fun, and is easy to remember? And that is how “closing deals in heels” was born. The exhilaration I started to feel reminded me of  the “old” Amanda! Over the next few days my mind raced with ideas. I couldn’t even sleep one night because I was so excited to start my business plan! I was getting my spunk back. And it felt SO good.

 

The last few weeks have been an exciting whirlwind… I had a very peaceful departure from my real estate partner who was sincerely happy for me, I joined my new brokerage which I chose very carefully after speaking with numerous ones, and I’ve started building and marketing my own real estate business. I have not felt this much passion and energy since before my mastectomy. I have my drive back, which is funny and ironic because my 7 month old puppy’s name is Drive. She has helped to heal me in so many ways this year and has brought me happiness even on my gloomiest of days. The other day I looked down at my tank top which read, “Be the person your dog thinks you are.”, and it dawned on me that I’m finally back to being that person I once knew.  Sometimes it just takes a dog and some heels to find your way again…

 

Are you curious to know about my plan to work with local women’s businesses and tie in real estate at the same time? Stay tuned! My next post will reveal all the exciting details!